I just keep throwing days away. I haven't done anything this weekend, except maybe think about stuff a bit. Since April, I've been really good at shitting my time away. I hardly do homework anymore. I just sit in front of the computer and kind of wait for something to make me do something. When I'm at work or outside of the house, I'm always antsy to get home so I can do art, but when I get here, I really don't do anything. My god, I haven't even finished my last song yet. The problem is that I'm thinking of adding two more songs. Something about the album isn't complete yet, which isn't a surprise because I haven't worked on it in so long.

I'm a lot more deliberate when I write now. I've gotten better, and I've stopped excusing myself when I wrote some shitty filler lines. I'm trying to be more efficient with how I write, which I've noticed as I was working on my most recent song. The best lyrics are the ones that are short and sweet, but leave you with the right picture in mind. You can capture a lot of emotion and vibe with only a few words. A good example is the first line of Radiohead's Blackstar, which goes:
"I get home from work and you're still standing in your dressing gown well what am I to do?"
Whenever I hear that line, the same image pops into my head: a husband walking in late at night to his shitty apartment with the T.V. on and his wife with her hair in curlers standing with her arms crossed and the bitchiest stare. It also reminds me of this picture I got off the Joker's wikipedia page: http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/9/95/Jokerorig.png.

I've got to start recording soon. I'm doing film as my side salad and for my Quest project. It's gonna be a short movie or documentary. I know that so far, but I'm stuck on an idea. I spent time during my AP physics test to write down all the ideas I have for the film. They're all little bits from movies that inspire me and I want to use. Songs give me a lot of ideas for film as well. I remember I used to think about movie ideas in my head when I was in middle school, and the way I'd keep track of the plot was through the soundtrack I'd arranged. I haven't given up any enthusiasm on the EP, even though I'm stoked for the film thing too. I wanted to do something with photography, too, but maybe I'll save that for the summer.